Thursday, October 22, 2020

Peace Like a River

 

The year is ending, Let it go 

2020’s been full of woe

What has been done with this year

I don’t know,

I don’t remember.

A train wreck going at warp speed through months of fear and trepidation.

I don’t remember anything from January to March because I’ m feeling old.

Nor do I remember anything from March till October for it was filled with fear and angst.

November, standing on my threshold, barefooted and with trembling lip, wonders….will it be worth it?

Does this sound familiar? Does your life feel like your life has been turned upside down. I guess we could just turn off our    media and stop reading newspapers. I think I have turned into a news junkie. I have discovered CNN

First thing in the morning, even before breakfast I have the computer on to see what has happened over night. But oh how I miss the olden days when I could lie in the grass , listen to the birds, and watch the clouds float by. I had no cares in the world, well, except getting my homework done. Why can’t everyone just behave like I want them too?

But, Oh, the responsibility!

I need to turn over responsibility, act with faith, and as Michael McLean wrote in his song, “Which Part is Mine,”

      Which part is mine? And God, which part is yours?
Could you tell me one more time, cause I'm never quite sure
And I won't cross the line like I have before.
But it gets so confusing sometimes.
Should I do more or trust the divine.
Could you please tell me which part is mine and which part is yours?

Trusting in God is my goal that I might find Peace.

   Peace
Peace, flowing
Like a river through the canyons
Of my existence
Reaches up
Catches my attention—

Willing me to flee
Tension.
Fear.
Pain.
Bringing me
Home
To God
Again.

Friday, August 7, 2020

Welcome To My Neighborhood


At Relief Society this month we have begun a getting to know you better program. Since some of us haven’t been able to attend church for three months we are to tell the people we minister too something about ourselves, with the hope that you will tell us something back about you. The prompt today was to tell you a childhood memory. Here is one of mine.

Welcome To My Neighborhood
 
Wendy Hauer

I never really liked bears, but my Dad did.
He loved to take us to the zoo, and sure enough we always gravitated to
the bear exhibits first. His favorite was the sun bear, a tall lanky brown bear with a
yellow patch on his stomach.  At 5 feet at least it looked tall to us when we were
younger and shorter.
He has an extremely long narrow tongue for getting into bee hives and is sometimes called a honey bear.
They would stand on either side of the fence and stare at each other. Daring,
who would be the first to flinch? My dad always won.
He had a way of taking chances that made my mom mad. One day, driving
through Yellowstone Park we saw a black bear on the side of the road.  My
dad pulled up, rolled down the window and threw jellybeans across the car
roof at the bear.

“Don’t Feed the Bears!” Don’t Feed the Bears!”  My mom screamed. The bear
was on her side and she was the one who would be attacked first.  The four of us in
the back seat begged him to quit too. We were too young to be afraid of the bears,
but we wanted the jellybeans.

I guess it was natural to be carefully comfortable living around bears. We
lived in a house in the mountains on the edge of the forest. Wild life was abundant
and we learned to live in their neighborhood as they live in ours. It seems that every
year we had visits from the bears, especially during the droughts.  The apple tree
was particularly vulnerable to their munching and it was outside my bedroom
window.

Other bears loved to break into the neighbor’s hot tubs for a warm drink.
Janet, who lived up the street a few houses made two apple pies one fall and
left them on the windowsill to cool while she went to town. Her daughter Mary came
home for a visit about the same time that the bear was ready for a snack. Hearing
the noise of the bear entering the house by the window, Mary quietly got up, shut
the door and left to call the forest service bear retrieval department from a safer
distance.

Another year a neighbor came to tell me that there was a bear sighting. A high school boy was doing his homework at the table in his kitchen two houses
down the road from us. Hearing a noise, he looked up and out into the back yard.
There, on the deck was a black bear trying to get into the house through the screen
door. Coolly keeping his head, Paul closed and locked the glass door. The forest
service arrived and the bear headed quickly to one of the taller Ponderosa pine trees
at the back of the property. Taking my two-month old daughter with me we walked
down to the house to watch. We sat on the deck as the forest service men shot a
tranquilizing dart into the bear’s side. The bear turned, looked at the dart, and
calmly picked it out of his rump, dumping it to the ground. Three darts later he was
still feisty and determined to stay in his tree.
“Give him a lethal dose Joe”, the boss shouted.

One more shot and the bear tumbled to the forest floor. We had been told to head
into the house the moment he landed in case he hadn’t been knocked out yet. So, we
hustled inside, the adventure over. When he was trussed and netted, we headed back
out of the house to make sure he was still alive and would be transported to another
mountain hundreds of miles away to continue his life pillaging another
neighborhood.

My daughter doesn’t remember this adventure, but has inherited her
grandfather’s appreciation for honey and bears; at the zoo.

Thursday, July 2, 2020

Brutal Editing


 











I enjoy taking other people’s words and making poems out of them. This poem was using the words of a new friend when I first moved to Virginia

BRUTAL EDITING
 (Cathy’s words)

There is too much stuff
Cluttering my life—
Angry Thoughts,
Words I’ve yelled and wish I could
Take back
Deeds I’ve left undone.
I need to do some brutal editing
And leave some room for sunshine.

Cathy was very busy with church callings, work and family. Life can get stressful. From our talks and from her words I could feel that stress, and that she was looking for ways to edit it out of her life if she could. I go back to this poem a lot when I let myself get under stress to contemplate ways to edit it out of my life. It is good to have some stress in my life to help me get things done, like deadlines. But often I let things slide more than I should, and put myself into unnecessary stress.

I tend to get angry when someone tries to bully my husband and children into doing something they don’t have the equipment or capability to do. As we get older, I tend to get more protective. Anger is another emotion I need to edit from my life.

Apathy also is a word I wish I could edit. With this “Stay at Home” encouragement we are going through right now because of our pandemic, I just don’t have the energy or desire to do anything but read or watch TV. We have enjoyed watching old movies and call it our Saturday night date, which is fun. Sometimes we even make popcorn. And I’ve read a hundred books in the last three months! Some of them are educational, some are spiritual, some are puzzles to solve (aka mysteries). But I don’t really feel that I’m accomplishing anything.

My daughter tells me to add more music to my life to bring in some sunshine. I’ve started playing my piano every day and it feels wonderful. I can only play the melody line but then I only had eight weeks of lessons when I was eight. She bought a used accordion and is having a ball.

Service—now there is a word that is a good replacement for apathy, and anger, and stress.
So, I am off to make more masks and quilts!

One of my favorite hymns is
Have I Done Any Good?
1. Have I done any good in the world today?
Have I helped anyone in need?
Have I cheered up the sad and made someone feel glad?
If not, I have failed indeed.
Has anyone's burden been lighter today
Because I was willing to share?
Have the sick and the weary been helped on their way?
When they needed my help was I there?
Text and music: Will L. Thompson, 1847-1909, alt.

What words do you need to replace in your life?

Saturday, May 23, 2020

In Each Other's Shadows



‘In each other’s shadows’: Behind Irish outpouring of relief for Navajo

New York
My husband showed me an article from The Christian Science Monitor, May 13 issue, this week that really touched us. If only we could all be this kind and thoughtful.
Cassandra Begay felt a quiet sense of awe earlier this month when she and other Navajo and Hopi women watched their COVID-19 fundraiser begin to double, inexplicably, in less than a week.
The women’s relief effort, launched in mid-March, had already been quite successful, she says, raising about $1.3 million to provide food and water for the most vulnerable living in their nations’ remote communities – who have been among those most afflicted by the coronavirus pandemic across the United States.
“Then one of my teammates, she’s like, ‘Hey, guys, we’re all of the sudden receiving a flood of donations from Ireland!’” says Ms. Begay, a Navajo activist who’s been handling the team’s communications. “And so we’re, like, ‘What’s going on? Why us? Why is a whole country all of the sudden donating to us?’”
There were thousands of unfamiliar names appearing on the team’s GoFundMe page – the first names Siobhán, Padraig, and Aoife, or surnames O’Leary, McMullen, and Gallagher – each donating small amounts from across the Atlantic. Many posted a common Irish proverb: Ar scáth a chéile a mhaireann na daoine, which means, “In each other’s shadows the people live.” 
The women soon learned why the donations, now at more than $3.6 million, were pouring in: After hearing about their fundraiser, many people in Ireland recalled a moment from their own history more than 170 years ago. Another tribe of America’s first peoples, the Choctaw, raised $170 (about $5,000 in today’s dollars) and sent it to starving Irish families during the Potato Famine in 1847.
“I’m sure Ireland received all sorts of donations from around the world back then, but that’s the one that has stuck with us,” says Maria Ferrell, an Irish writer living in London. “It’s one of those stories that we have about a people who were there for us when we were weak and powerless and alone. They helped us, and now we’re friends forever.”
A different people whose ancestral lands were over 1,200 miles from the Hopi’s and Navajo’s, the Choctaw collected their modest donation just a few years after the infamous Trail of Tears, when the U.S. government forcibly removed them from their ancestral lands across the South, killing thousands.  
“I think the gift touched and stayed with Irish people so much, basically because it wasn’t charity. It was an act of solidarity,” Ms. Ferrell says. “The Choctaw people, they were giving it to us because they saw us, they recognized us and our plight as being similar to theirs.”
COVID-19 crisis has affected Native peoples across the U.S. in disproportionate numbers. The Navajo Nation in Arizona and New Mexico, with a population of about 330,000, now has more coronavirus cases per capita than any state, according to the Navajo health agency
Given how infectious diseases brought over from Europe, such as the measles and smallpox, wiped out large swaths of native populations, many observers say the outsize effects of COVID-19 today on Native peoples are particularly poignant. 
More than a third of their nation’s members have no running water or electricity The area is also considered a food desert, with only 13 grocery stores serving more than 180,000 people. Even before the lockdown, unemployment hovered around 50%.
But one of the most critical problems on Navajo lands has been the lack of health care infrastructure. The situation has become so dire that the international relief agency Doctors Without Borders, which serves poverty stricken and war-torn areas throughout the world, sent a delegation of health care workers to the United States for the first time. 
Ms. Begay’s grandmother is among those living without running water and electricity. Her best friend contracted the virus, too, she says. Unable to see him face to face, she’s been leaving meals and bouquets of flowers near his front door. 
“It’s been heartbreaking, but it’s also been – it feels good to come from a place of strength and compassion and grace for our people,” Ms. Begay says through tears. “And for me personally – I get emotional about this, because I know this is a dark time for us – but, you know, with the outpouring of support from the Irish people because of what the Choctaw ancestors did 173 years ago – it’s so good to be a part of that history, a positive part of that history.”
Her people have a concept similar to that in the Irish proverb appearing on their fundraising site, she says, a spiritual idea called K’é
“It’s about the importance of honoring the sacredness of our relations to each other,” she says. “It’s the principal belief that where we come from – our family, our community, our nation, as well as our relations with other people, and not only just humans, but of all things – it’s a sacred relationship.” 
Bottom of Form
“But I know that I won’t have any regrets from this part of my life and in this time of history,” she continues. “With the outpouring of support from our Irish friends because of what the Choctaw ancestors did 173 years ago ... it’s something we’ll always remember, and our children will remember, and there will come a day when we will pay it forward, too.”
What can we do? How can we help?

Friday, April 24, 2020

Be Kind


 











I am heart broken. A plague is running rampant through our world. The economy is becoming more and more unstable. Tornadoes are ripping through the south devastating people’s lives. Earth quakes are threatening people I love. Our government is in a shamble. The hurricane season will be starting shortly. And the food supply is dwindling for various reasons throughout the country. But, “As long as I’m all right, you don’t matter,” seems to be the mantra of our country. We are blaming others for our problems and isolating, hiding from the world, the village, the neighbors. And yet the spirit of the Samaritan lives on: One of the many examples are the families who lost their homes from tornadoes and were taken in by their neighbors in spite of the isolation directive.

When we had the wild fire in Los Alamos in May 2000 which took out a quarter of our town, the residents came together. They helped each other, They worked together. They were a force for the rebuilding of our town, our families, our government, our society, our environment. People came from all over the country to give, to encourage, to help us.
But we in our small neighborhood are shutting people out. Why? Yes, someone peeked through my window -several people-, several times. Yes, people felt free to feed their horses with our apples. (We have lots of apples and are happy to share.) Yes, people let their dogs run free leaving presents for us to find and their horses to express themselves in our drive- to us this is just part of a rural “neighborhood”.

Edwin Markham wrote "
“He drew a circle that shut me out-
Heretic, rebel, a thing to flout.
But love and I had the wit to win:
We drew a circle and took him In!”
Times are coming that we are going to need each other.
In spite of the difficulties we are facing in our country, in our world right now,
Can we take a moment to smile at our neighbors, have a kind world for those who take time and effort to help us, help those in need. I still agree with our governor, “Stay home and wash your hands,”and pray for your neighbors.

Friday, March 27, 2020

Be Brave




I hope you and your family are well. I hope you are safe and warm. I hope you have been able to provide for your needs and wants. I hope you can reach out to your friends and neighbors and offer comfort and help (at a distance).
I remember many years ago, being warned that things would happen in our future, that we needed to prepare ourselves for uncomfortable situations. Did I listen?
Sometimes, when it was convenient, I listened. I prepared when my babies were little and my husband was away during theViet Nam War, and then, when I was left alone to raise them. Well, forty years later I decided it was probably too old to move across the country to store there. Have you ever tried to cook forty year old pinto beans? Now I wish I had updated instead of tossing my stash. But I was secure for forty years.
I didn’t consider myself a hoarder. I was being prudent, a girl scout! I was prepared. In our current situation, with empty shelves, how much dare we stock up on? A day’s worth? A week? How many times do I want to eat oatmeal?  I know that when we come out of this, I will slowly restock my pantry. In the meantime, I will learn to enjoy making bread again, I will, I will.  I still have a jar of peanut butter.
My current mantra is If I can’t find what I want, I will want what I find. It makes the meals interesting, and induces creativity. In some small ways some of us can think of this as an adventure. Do everything you can to stay healthy, find things to make you smile, read a book, write a poem.
 Promise me you’ll always remember that you’re braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.” Christopher Robin

 “Take chances, make mistakes. That’s how you grow. Pain nourishes your courage. You have to fail in order to practice being brave.” Mary Tyler Moore

Thursday, February 27, 2020

Integrity


I have been really down this month. It should be a happy month, I think of the good things February has brought to our lives. Valentines day, Presidents day, Black History month. Then there is politics. Lots of debates, primary elections, political ads, shootings, and many illegal activities. What has gotten into the people of this country, world? Everywhere there is anger, hurt, disrespect, and feelings of “I want mine. I don’t care about yours.
I think we are losing our feelings of integrity. What is integrity? Here are seven aspects of Integrity.     

1. Honesty 

2. Respect

3. Generating trust  

4. Pride

5. Responsibility 

6. Keeping promises

7. Helping others.

On the Internet today I found this poem by Michael Josephson
WHAT WILL MATTER by Michael Josephson (c) 2003WhatWillMatter.com
Ready or not, some day it will all come to an end. There will be no more sunrises, no minutes, hours, or days. All the things you collected, whether treasured or forgotten, will pass to someone else. Your wealth, fame, and temporal power will shrivel to irrelevance. It will not matter what you owned or what you were owed. Your grudges, resentments, frustrations, and jealousies will finally disappear.  So, too, your hopes, ambitions, plans, and to-do lists will expire. The wins and losses that once seemed so important will fade away. It won’t matter where you came from or what side of the tracks you lived on at the end. It won’t matter whether you were beautiful or brilliant. Even your gender and skin color will be irrelevant.
So, what will matter? How will the value of your days be measured?
What will matter is not what you bought but what you built; not what you got but what you gave. What will matter is not your success but your significance. What will matter is not what you learned but what you taught. What will matter is every act of integrity, compassion, courage, or sacrifice that enriched, empowered, or encouraged others to emulate your example. What will matter is not your competence but your character. What will matter is not how many people you knew but how many will feel a lasting loss when you’re gone. What will matter is not your memories but the memories of those who loved you. What will matter is how long you will be remembered, by whom, and for what. Living a life that matters doesn’t happen by accident. It’s not a matter of circumstance but of choice. Choose to live a life that matters.
How is your Integrity doing? What can we do to improve?